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Wordsthatiwantedtosayforalonglongtime at 11:37 PM

如果你有得选着跟一个对你很好的人在一起可是你对他没有感觉的人,还是你会选择一个对你还不是很了解可是你又对他有感觉的人在一起? 你会选择那一个? 两个都不选吗? 还是? 你知道吗?我从没有想过我会有一天因为感情而伤害我身边的人.. 我不要我! 宁愿什么都不要.. Haih. 做人真的很难..

Labels: feelings, heartbreak, sadness, Scared, Stressful, tired

everafter at 12:17 AM

Am I the only one who feels this way all the time?
the pain that you gave me is just something that words could not even describe.
and it's not everyday I've felt like this.
it's just on certain days. And I have no idea why.
what's wrong with me.
I want to be me.
I want to be happy.
but somehow,
I can only wish to be.
Not just naturally be.

#sigh

Labels: feelings, heartbreak, sadness

updownleftright at 1:05 AM

为什么莲心痛时还是会笑?
为什么明明要哭了还是会笑?
为什么人家一进来我们就要察干眼泪装作没事对着他们笑? 
为什么就是不能不笑?
为什么?

#haih.

Labels: sadness, tired

flashbacks at 7:05 PM

Yesterday I stopped and think for awhile.
about what you said last year.
Okay, I admit I still remember.

I've waited for 2years. Wow. Two years?
Am I stupid or what? probably the dumbest person alive.
And when I finally had the courage to told you last year,
you just said "you'll find someone better than me".
My reaction was..
While waiting > :) > :|
Received > :D :D :D
Open the text > :/ > :( > :'( > </3.
yea. just like that.
But i think i replied.. "Oh okay."

But why can't I forget after what you've said?
I can't let go. 我 .放 .不 .下.
cause there's still a little hope in me that one day,
you would come back..
you'd run to me like nobody's business & hug me.
telling me sorry for what you've said. 
And I'll be like.. :'')
But, I don't think it's gonna happen though.
haha. stupid me. forever thinking that miracle would happen.

okay, maybe I've let go, but the feelings are always still there.
no one could ever replace them. no one could give me the same feelings as you did.

maybe just for now?
I really hope it can go away..
please. It haunts me every single day.

All though I think that I've let go.
I'd still hope its you when my phone rings.

well,
let go. just let go. let it flow. let it go. let it. just let it.
just know that it's never coming. not ever. never ever. coming back.
leave it. drop it. and just go.
no looking. never looking. just don't ever look back.

If you ever come back,I'd still choose you.
It'd still be you.

Labels: feelings, heartbreak, sadness, tired

The reason at 3:29 PM

hello..
You know I have my reasons,
why I don't accept people easily.
why I don't easily say yes to people who asks me out.
why I don't trust people.
why I don't do stuffs I wanna do.
why I don't tell my stuffs to everyone.

I have my reasons and you don't know what is it.
so,don't just go everywhere telling people stuffs you don't even know,about me.

Labels: feelings

I'm in pain at 9:09 AM

Sick on valentines day? Are you kidding me? WHY ME? :( this is probably the second worst sickness I've ever got in my whole entire life -.-. So freaking pain and San Fu. I vomited damn alot of times. I seriously don't know how my body manage to make me vomite when I didn't even eat anything. weird. And I don't even know why I suddenly will feel headache and want to vomite. It's not food poisoning. Cause I didn't eat anything in the morning AT ALL. I think it must be gastric.. :( I've got the same sickness as my mummy.. Haih..

Labels: heartbreak, sadness, Scared, sick, tears, tired

Quite True at 3:31 PM

處女座喜歡在傷心的時候聽傷心的歌
喜歡在開心的時候和在乎的人分享

常常口是心非，想拒絕卻開不了口
朋友挺多，但懂的不多

不喜歡主動聯繫別人，但不是不在乎
不喜歡欠別人，也不喜歡別人欠自己

處女很安靜，也很瘋癲。
我就是我，不是我沒心沒肺，我只是對很多事看得很開。

處女座，耐心、體貼，而且節儉。
會努力把複雜的事情完成，有時候會不想破壞友誼
所以麻煩事乾脆自己做，久了免不了就會擔太多的責任。
情緒相當敏感，也常會受傷

處女座喜歡折磨人
一會兒對你好，一會兒對你壞

處女座喜歡自欺欺人，一直說以後一切都會好
處女座很壞很壞，壞的願意用整個生命去愛你
處女座有點冷，不擅長對初識的人嶄露過多的笑顏，特別是異性。
一定要對方先流露出對他有好感，他才散發她的熱情。

處女座沒有平淡的愛，若不是全部，就是沒有

處女座的熱情可以把你融化
處女座的冷漠可以讓你對自己產生懷疑
處女座的霸道往往叫你無可奈何
處女座的聰慧讓你連連歎息
處女座的冒失讓你斜線三條
處女座的固執讓你火冒三丈
處女座的幽默讓你覺得人生很快樂
處女座故裝的堅強會讓你產生想疼惜的念

Labels: real, true

Blabbering at 12:35 AM

Hello there. I just came back from cineleisure.
Just watched haywire. I thought it was a really great and interesting movie.
But guess what? "Aaaankkk" (say it out.) :p it means NO.
Boy was I wrong for thinking that it'd be a great movie.
What a stupid movie. No storyline. You will not understand a thing about it.
Well..maybe just a little. Like, she tried to save the good guy but in the end the good guy got killed by the bad guy and she kills the bad guy then, the end. Yay. Great movie huh?
And another, chronicles. Even worst than haywire.
Its like some documentary clip. shitty, Weird storyline. It's about 3guys who has super power. Then one overused the power and turn crazy. In the end left one. Cause uh. One fell down from the sky and die because of trying to stop the other friend from over using the power. Then the other, the crazy one got killed by the other friend. Dumb huh?
Just by typing this all seems more interesting then watching the movie. Lol. In my opinion la.
And anyway, I like to criticize. Well, I criticize alot. And yep. That's me. The real me.
Hate when I criticize? Leave.
Can resist my criticizing? Stay.

Labels: epic fail, real, true

Dissapointments at 11:16 PM

Why is everything happening in such a bad timing?
First, my mom forgotten to take my art block back.
Second, I am so desperate to get it.
Third, it turns out that giant sells such thin art blocks. Wtf. Erase two time then torn d la.
Fourth. Giant, you let me down when I'm in such a hurry.
Fifth, freaking due date is tmr. And I dont have any art block to paste all my things.
Sixth, teacher said that tmr is last day. Next week onwards then no marks. Sigh.
Why the heck is this happening to me?
Then now. Idk who's crying downstairs in my house. Sigh.
The feeling when you hear someone cry. So heartbreaking.
I wonder if people see me cry, will they also feel sad and heartbroken? Sigh.
What a day.

Labels: feelings, heartbreak, sadness, Scared

I can't take it at 10:58 PM

I can't focus.
Because me & my mind still can't stop thinking of having fun/playing/screaming around.
That's what I always get when I just came back from Genting.
feels like it's haunting me.
SIGH. WHY ME?!
I can't even write one full paper of words for my moral project.
I wrote a few then i started scrolling through fb,twitter and my pictures.
Then I ended up having only one sentence after 2hours. :(
And due date is on friday.
Do I die or what? :/

HELP ME.
I AM FEELING SO STRESSED OUT.
WHY FORM 5.
WHY SPM.
WHY WHY WHY.

I feel like crying now. It's all in me,everywhere.
That sad & pain feeling right inside.
The feeling of "you can't accomplish anything in time".
The feeling of "if you don't do,you will fail your SPM".
The feeling of "you'll get screwed".

I have to go to sleep now.
Tmr staying back till 5.
Then have to come back to do this moral project :(
let's hope I can do it..
or I'll be crying cause I can't do it..
Imsuchacrybaby.

Labels: feelings, sadness, Scared, Stressful, tired

broken at 10:59 PM

Hi.
just came back from Genting today.
it was definitely a blast.
although it was quite scary. cause uh.. got ghost.
IN THE HOTEL ROOM.
ok i should stop scaring myself -_-.
cause i'm going to sleep soon.

Well, I went with (mom's side cousins) to Genting on sat afternoon at about 3-4something,then reach at about 6. cause there's a major jam right there. not really majorly major just that people are trying to find parking there so we had to jam quite some time till we reach the parking area. ughh.
&, We stayed in first world. so that explains all the ghostly things.
&,& I play CORKSCREW again. Like finally after 9months. YAYme.
And we did crazy stuffs. AHHA. We used yesterdays ticket to play for today. (well,I know that alot of people does that too but this is my/our first time so,yeah.)
IT WAS Mad scary. We WERE Mad scared. OUR HEART WAS POUNDING REALLY FAST,HARD & LOUD.
Cause we were afraid that we kena stop or something. HAHA.
But guess what? we didn't! Yayy!
Weehoooo.

Sad part is.. I had to go home.
so all happy memories stopped right there.
goodbye fun land/happiness land.
I AM MISSING IT ALREADY.
CRAP. NO. I CAN'T.
MUST.
FOCUS.
ON.
ASS.
PEE.
AM.
:/..

HAHA.okay. bai,
That's all I wanna say.
goodnight.
sleep tight.
thanks for reading my craps.

Labels: happiness, sadness

I'll try at 11:45 PM

hi to whoever reading this.
congrats on finding my new blog :)
for those who don't know why I closed down my previous blog,
it's because > negativity, overthinking, sadness was in it and it made people sad. so,yeah.
I decided to leave it.

Anyway,I just finished editing this whole entire blog.
Like,finally after 419874281712hours.
HEH.

AND.
See the button "+Follow" on top?(right side)< Click it and follow me if you want to :)
And Uhm..
Drop some comments in my chatbox if you don't mind :)
Thank you.
I'll try to update positive stuffs more often. I promise.
Tata,

Labels: new