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Judge 'one' not. at 6:16 PM

People always say, Everyone has their own stories to tell.
Yeah. That's true.

"you don't know what they've been through"
"you don't understand"

Yes, perhaps people don't understand. But I guess it is no harm trying.
Or Even if people don't understand, But at least you know you have them by your side, supporting you & telling it's okay. Like things won't ever stay the same. The good will never stay good, so does the bad. So just keep going on. The sky won't forever shine, there'll always be darkness when it's time. Rain won't always pour, it'll go away. Just like everything else we can relate to.

But sometimes, at our own point of view.
We really want or hope someone to know.
Like our needs, what we want, what we hope or so,
So we don't have to live so tiredly, fearfully.

But we know.. people have their own things to care about & no one will ever stop & have time to do things for you. But I know somewhere out there, there could/will be.

Come to think of it, humans are weird. It's like I want you to know, but I won't tell you.
But that's the worse thing to ever do. Human's are just..(BLUR)? We need to be told to know. (sadly)

I don't know if it's me or even if we don't understand  a person, we sometime's will still try/ give some advice. But sometime's we don't even know which is true & which isn't. It's like we are blinded.
Always feeling so helpless. It's depressing.

well,

"If you could read my mind, you'd be in tears."


it's true when.. at 5:50 PM

They say love is blind.

I feel blinded yet I still see things the way it is.

I don't even know whats right & what's wrong

or

what feels right & wrong anymore.

love. Such a strange thing to experience.

I kinda think I like girls more.

Guys,

They may give pleasure & leisure. But I feel disconnected from them.

What am I feeling..?

Maybe I really am Not suitable for relationships.


I could see it in their eyes at 6:14 PM

It's Saturday, & yup, I have work.

It was finally 3pm. & i was gonna go off work at 4.
But at 3:20pm there was a call to the office, so i went to pick up, hoping it isn't a prank call or some nonsense. Because this is the 2nd called I picked up throughout the whole day & the first one was some kind of.. weird phone call. Kinda regretted it. I even talked so nicely, & sorry to say, i even gave my bosses phone number to 'him'. God. I feel like crap. So, back to the 2nd call. So I picked up & said, Hello, Yes? & In return she said hello, Is XXX around. & I said no. He left. Then she said if she could come over from xxxxxxx (somewhere I didn't know would take around 45mins-1hour) So I said ok, & see you. It was 3:25. It didn't occur to me that where she came from was far. & as soon as i close the call i regretted, cause I was waiting for so long just to leave work & just go back home. & soon it was 4pm.. (breakingdown) lol. They reached at 4:05 or so. Yep so, Had to wait & talk to them about the courses & everything. So apparently it was a "special" child. I heard her saying that she's 14 But she's still in kindergarten. I sank in a lil. Just felt sad. Then the child look so afraid & nervous.. But the mom said that she's really interested & loves doing practical activities. Which is a good news, but she's still afraid. Don't know why & what.

Anyway, I hated my colleague, for talking so loud & carelessly to the mom. & He even said, special child.. & the mom just stared at him & whispered, yes. I was looking at her expression & her eyes, her looks. she looks so helpless, but yet she accepted it & still standing strong for whatever circumstances. I just can't forget it. It impacted me. & I'm feeling sad.

But her mom, is so patient with her. heartfelt honestly.

I hope she can do well, next week, Her mom signed her & her sister up for short course class.
Hmm, May god bless.