No Matter What Happens.I'm Bankrupt Without Love.
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Ever since at 9:10 PM

Ever since my parents stopped hiring a maid.. This house just feels.. Not the same. Feels a lil' empty. Or should I say •LESS•. Everything seems lesser. The food seems to always have leftover, the room, the stairs, the dishes, the HOUSE.. Feels empty. Well, maybe to me it is because I'm the only one who's always at home. & my friends that have been here, always question me the same thing that is, wow, you're all alone? Not scared? Where's your maid? Why don't you go out? Then I would say, yeah. Nope. My parents stopped hiring. Cause I don't know who to find/ what to do if I'm out.

& I can't go out.... Long cause, I'll always think that there's something I must do at home.

Like, what if?
The laundry might get wet if it rains?
Who's gonna cook for family?

It's just plain.. Sad somehow. Sometimes.. Haha.
I don't know what to feel.


September at 11:12 PM

SEPTEMBER. Again.

10more days, how will that turn out?


KM at 11:11 PM

Here I am once again, I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend.

JUST KIDDING.

Just needed a place to type & I don't know where else is safe anymore. Everywhere it feels like someone's watching.. & then quietly judges you. Creepy huh. Come to think of it, yea?
Even worse is when someone is saying something about you but they didn't mention/tag you. & you're just there scrolling* scrolling* scrolling* through then saw it by accident & then felt that heavy feeling inside or that senses are telling you that.. OMFG. SHE/HE is writing about me. & why is that? I don't get it.  Just felt hurt & painful. Why would people do this. But come to think of it, I really shouldn't be. Cause if people have things to say about you probably cause they don't have anything nice to say about themselves, that's why they talk about you.
Haha,  so don't worry, you're a star. ✌️ Everyone talks about you. How cool is that?