No Matter What Happens.I'm Bankrupt Without Love.
XoXo


« go back

« go back

Talk is cheap at 10:47 PM

感觉说话, 聊天, 有时候 真的很没有意义.


les miserable at 8:38 PM

I really don't know if I really am suppose to feel like this, or even worse, thinking like this, honestly.


------- at 10:17 PM

The whole entire week I have, & all I can look forward to, is cheer. The only thing I wanna do. & My favourite. 


keeping gap at 10:59 PM

Maybe distancing from people is a good idea.
you could feel less that way.. & whatever they do wouldn't affect you.. as much.

cause when you're too nice.. people are just gonna go all over you & use you..

Sometimes when people talk to me.. like all of a sudden, a long lost friend of yours just started talking to you again.. & yep, they started of really nicely.. then after that you will feel that this is so wrong.. its going no where & its getting really weird & you have no idea why & whats wrong until..... They start telling you something. & THAT thing.. caught you. Yup. & that thing is, what they were trying to say at the very beginning but started of nicely instead. So yeah.. they already had a plan.. They only talk to you when they need something.. ha ha.. Should've known. Seriously.

So now there's like this kind of mindset in me that.. " people only do good to you when they need something. So, 'beware'.

Well,

The thing is, people use people instead of things.

-If things were to be used & people were to be loved, we would all be in peace.-






I don't know what I want at 9:54 PM

I don't know if its me or some people just like to fake feelings.
I feel so bad for saying this, cause one second it was so real.
& the other, it was *poof* gone.

ugh.. feeling so helpless. What a shitty feeling.

ohwell, nevermind about that.

Was scrolling through facebook today,
& i saw this really really meaningful quote...
it caught me. somehow.

I heard most of the people say being alone is the scariest thing of all, the boy said.

The monk then laugh & said what do you think?

Feeling alone?

Nope, the monk said.

Misunderstanding?

Incorrect, the monk said.

Disappointments?

Nope, the boy said like 10things in one shot & the monk still says shakes his head & say no.

Then the boy said, then what is it master?

It is you, yourself, The monk said.

Me? He looked up, his eyes wide open & somewhat understand & somehow don't understand what the monk is trying to say. The boy just stared at the monk & say, please tell me.

Yes, The monk smiled saying. He said, the things you said, like, Feeling alone, misunderstandings & disappointments are what you feel inside of you, your own shadow. It is just a feeling you give yourself. It's not true. It's only a feeling.

I am not sure if anyone understands this at all.
HAHAHA. I had a hard time too. then yep, I got it..









Like that, just like that at 12:23 AM

Why is it that I always make some of the moments awkward when it isn't..? Like.. You can feel it.. Like, uhm.. Awkward.. Then it's like you feel.. All uncomfortable & all.. Hmm.. Why.?


I wished I knew at 6:15 PM





weird at 1:15 AM

Do you feel that sometimes you get more open & close to people you just know or just met?
it's like you can tell them anything, anything at all.
& you didn't even think twice. or isn't even afraid of what they'll say.
you just feel comfortable. & you have no idea why.
It is just that way..
& that's a good feeling.
Being able to say anything or do anything you want & not getting judge & all.
having the same feelings, same thoughts..

Amazing, isn't it?






as if at 11:48 AM

I just had to stop.
Stop myself from thinking, whatsyes & not.
Stop myself from thinking that, it's non of my business.
Stop myself from asking why, whats wrong, what is it. Although I really want to know.
I just had to stop. I don't know or don't want to be or How i was back then anymore.
Treating everyone so nice & good.. & Then let them get attached to me & leave me, again & again.