Somehow, 

Don't mind me.

Ohwells, first day w Bullets. 

It was really exciting & fun.

At first I really felt super duper nervous but then.. Yep. It got okay.. I guess. heh.

Was looking forward to the next practice till.. Yep, you got it right. DAD DECIDED TO CALL & ruin my whole entire mood. (As usual) me, always worrying about the same old thing. "Parents calling".

Sigh.. The thing I'm most afraid of..

& yep, he scold & keep on asking where am I & what I'm doing & all. And like I say, even if I told you, you wouldn't know. & then you were like, you are the one who's getting tossed up isn't it? (It was rather shocking when he said that) then I said yep. & he's like DONT YOU EVER DARE JOIN. YOU THINK ITS VERY FUN?! GETTING TOSSED? ( it truly is fun, for me. You don't know me, you never were in my shoes & you will never be. So who are you to judge?) I was in silence. & then he said YOU BETTER COME BACK NOW!!! & i paused.. & in silence again.. & he repeat.. & I just said yea.

Mhmm, so that's how it went.

I know dad, it is dangerous. I do know. But can't you just trust me? In things I do & the people I'm with? This is like the issues with you guys. Can't you just be okay with it? So we'll be like, I happy, you happy, everybody happy. -the end-.

But somehow, no. You just can't let me.

Sigh. I don't know how. 

I really don't..

xx
Will you catch me if I fall?
Will you hug me if I cry?